Today, my husband and a few friends have found out what I am feeling and the thought of the support behind them trying to get me through all of this is overwhelming. I know that some of it is because this is close to the time of year when I was brutally attacked by my ex resulting in me losing my first two babies and landing myself in a mental hospital.... Things like this will always lead to a downward slope. Thankfully I was able to get out of the house and do some volunteering at a church.... it always makes me feel better to be able to give like that.... I just want to give more... though I miss moments like this one in the picture.... I am still very depressed and know with my neurologist not wanting to give me the results I am entitled to to all of my tests it is making me really nervous... I am almost out of my meds that are barely keeping me sane and the doctors really don't seem to care.... on the bright side, I will be having my audition for my churches worship team here soon and I feel real hopeful about it. I love to sing and would love to sing to our Lord..... Thanks for those who are rooting for me to get better and make things work out for us here.... it means the world to me that I have such great friends.... love you all
